LOA

After studying my past entries, I find that I am in a better emotional state.  Sometimes, we just need to get to the root of a problem before we can come to terms with it and find an effective solution.

So WeightWatchers is going great!  I’ve been on it for 17 days and I’ve lost 14.1lbs.  I feel awesome – my clothes fit me better… I feel prettier!  My confidence level is at an all-time high.  For the first time in a long time, I feel like I have a drive.

So a few years ago, my aunt/GodMother introduced me to “The Secret.”  I watched the movie and read the book, and it made a lot of sense to me.  However, it took about a month-long of listening to the audio CD in my car everyday for it to really sink in.  I recognize “The Secret,” or the law of attraction (LOA) as my reality.  While, in theory, this is a very simple concept, practicing it all day everyday is a whole other story.  How do you constantly remind yourself to think positive?  How, when you are a very thoughtful, strategic person, do you ignore the negative when everything you’ve learned up until this point has taught you to look at both sides of the coin?  How do you analyze something when you are supposed to ignore the alternative to what you want?  This is my problem.

I am a Libra.  Now, I don’t believe that each zodiac sign is true to every individual, but I am a true Libra as far as the justice/equality characterization.  I like to see all sides of a situation… this makes me a very indecisive person.  It takes me a while to really figure out what I want.  When communicating a problem or scenario, I can get lost in the debate of a topic and completely forget to make my point… or settle on one at all for that matter.  On the bright side, I am an excellent problem-solver, but when it comes to the LOA, you have to know what you want.  You have to decide on something, believe it to be, and it will be.  Well, while my brain is analyzing all the reasons why it could NOT be, I am losing focus on bringing it to me.  How do you quiet a thoughtful mind?  How do you decide on something and focus all your energy into it without contemplating alternatives?  How do I not try to figure out all the ways it can possibly come to me and just believe with unwavering faith that it’s coming regardless of route?  Once I figure this out, I will be a master of the LOA.  I have enough emotion to put into what I want… it’s the focus that fucks me up.

This will be another step in my journey… learning to focus my thoughts and desires.

Let’s see… what are some ways to focus your attention throughout the day on what you WANT instead of what you don’t?  “The Secret” suggests things like vision boards.  Basically, you make up a poster or a collage of the things you want.  Find pictures or things that make you focus on the things you want to bring into your life and place them in a spot where you’ll see them everyday.  While you are looking at your vision board, imagine already having these things and feel grateful for them.

Okay… so when am I supposed to do this?  I lead a rather busy life.  I rarely sleep in the same bed two nights in a row and I’m always in my damn car.  My whole job is basically driving to and from clients’ homes or to and from my home and my fiancé’s home.  Perhaps I could make something for my car?  What a distraction that would be.  You know what the first thing on my vision board is going to be when I finally find a place for one?  My own home.  A place where I can keep all my shit together in one place, sleep in my own bed every single night (preferably next to my fiancé), and look at my damn vision board in the same place every single day.

Focus.  I will focus on the things I want and feel grateful for having them.  Until next time…